Wasted days and sleepless nights

Sleeping has never been my ally. We seem to have a relationship that cannot be described. It eludes me, no matter how much I may desire it. I think the worst part is BEING tired, yet NOT being able to sleep. I have feared this to be a problem as I heard my Grandma and Mom commiserate about their sordid relationship with sleep as a young girl. Alas, now I understand their trials and tribulations.
At least this time I know why....
Yesterday "the list" came out for the Engineer's test. Chris was not on the list. Both of us are devastated to say the least. All of his close friends did well, so we are happy for them, but it is certainly painful. There is a glimmer of hope that his practical was scored incorrectly and that he can challenge the final list, but as Chris told me, "It is the bottom of the 9th, there are 2 outs and there are 2 strikes against us".
I have been blessed with so much good and been surrounded by such success that this one is hitting particularly hard. Not to mention that nearly the first year of our marriage has been so desperately challenged by this test.....and for what? We will still hold on to a little glimmer of hope that this is merely the last chapter with a blank page.....only to turn the page to find an alternate ending.
In positive/feel-good news......
Luckily Tommy did call with some good news last night. He was chosen as a squad leader for his academy. Quite an honor. We are SO proud of him! Good Job Bubba!