Fear

Dejavu.

I've been here before.

It was May 12th and I tried to sneak in my long run during the week to compensate for an upcoming weekend continuing education course.

This week, Chris and I took off for a 15-mile run Tuesday morning before work.

I've done nothing longer than 10 on the streets in months.

I rolled the dice this week.
My body is letting me know, this may not have been the best decision.

For 5 months I have payed attention to every twitch, ache, or slightest pain.

Yesterday my fears were heightened.

Knowing that I pushed through the pain last time,

I took today off.

I'm hoping part of this is paranoia. I am so afraid to be back in *that* dark place.

I'll take care of myself again today and accept that I NEEDED this rest day.

So much of training has always been me pushing,

now I need to realize this is the best option right now.

My 50K is 16 days from now. Now is not the time to push.

November 6th will be that day.