2008....one month down.....

Well, the first week of February is drawing to an end. I spent Monday at the pediatric clinic and left (once again) in a daze. Not that I do not like to make decisions and be *in charge*, BUT I am SO fighting making a decision on this, it is strange.
I figured I would have a week or two to talk to my boss(es) at Kaiser to see where I stand in terms of landing a pediatric job. However, to my surprise in my inbox yesterday was an e-mail from the pediatric clinic.....informing me that I had until FRIDAY to make a decision. Now, I have known all along that they would be losing a therapist at the end of February.....but I did not expect to have to make a choice this soon.
Realistically, there is no way that I can get the answers I need and want from Kaiser prior to making a decision. All the while I have been tip-toeing around the issue, so as not to *shoot myself in the foot* with the management here. So....I remain torn, but I KNOW in my heart what I want, however this situation is just not playing out the way it needs to for it to work for me right now.
I went ahead and approached Kaiser to find out relaistically where I stand in terms of getting a pediatric job....neither of my bosses have responded.....not sure what that means.
None the less, I *think* my mind is made up.....for now at least :P