You're Gonna Miss This.....

If you remember back to this post -----> http://f1rewyf.blogspot.com/2008/02/just-when-i-thought.html life is getting interesting.
I think it is funny how people cope. Basically I can remember the phone call from Mom telling me Tommy had been offered and accepted a job in Seattle. I could hear the strength in her voice, but at that moment I was not able to be strong for her. I sat at my desk and felt the emotions building. Since that time there have been many discussions between Chris and I and my family as well trying to come to terms with his leaving. Sadly I think when we lost Grandma I learned to push my emotions away and just "ignore" what was really happening. Despite spending some time at home with Mom, Dad & Tommy and talking about the issues at hand and hearing Tommy say he had no plans to come back to California.....I feel numb. I started to talk to Chris about it this morning.....but I just can't.
Chris has been so supportive and really has tried to emphasize how proud and happy I should be. I can say that I think I just assume/know that Tommy will always/has always succeeded and I never doubted that.....so it is no surprise to me.
The next 2 weeks are going to be a challenge. We are celebrating Tommy's accomplishments this weekend and he will then venture off on the 15th of March. I am not sure the right way to cope or manage or deal.....but sometimes I think when there is such strong emotion, you sometimes just have to shove it aside and "carry on".....as best as you can.