So this weekend found me solo....Chris has been on duty since Friday morning! He was able to go home Monday for a few hours to sleep and we ate dinner together before he went back to work....
Needless to say, it made for a LONG weekend for me.
I was able to get my errands done, housecleaning, etc. within like 4 hours....so that left me with lots of time on my hands. I did get to shop and see a movie with a friend, which was REALLY nice. Except for the fact that I am now OBSESSED with tracking down some of the fashion items from Sex and The City, the movie :) I will avoid that topic all together as it is consuming my waking moments trying to track down purses, shoes and more....I'm bad, I know.
I digress....although secretly with patients the last few days I am picturing myself in the Dior gladiator's or carrying the Louis Vuitton Limelight bag......
A patient commented to me how it is really great that fire wives are "independent women". This comment stayed in my head all day and I found myself pondering it further this morning on my run. Yes, it is true....that women who are married to men who work odd hours find themselves home alone, mowing lawns or doing other household things that other women may have their husband do. However, I do take pride in the fact that I CAN do those things.....and although they aren't my favorite....I am able. Much to my dismay however, is the sad truth that although I do enjoy alone time, there is too much alone time.
There are moments of resentment of the job that takes them away. Whenever Chris and I talk about this I always say to him "you choose the job, so you are not allowed to complain about sleeping in a twin bed or being up all night". In all fairness, I remind myself that I choose my husband....and therefore the lifestyle that goes along with it.
The more and more I thought about being alone a thought entered my mind.....what about the wives and families or our soldiers....serving overseas....how long are they 'alone'?....how do they find strength?. Suddenly my 96 or whatever hours seemed ridiculous, unimportant and I felt selfish.
I admire and respect any family and wife who endures the "lifestyle" of public safety, but I also have to feel incredibly thankful that my husband won't soon be on another continent to fight a war....
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4 comments:
Having a loved one away for any short or long amount of time is difficult. My husband will now have to travel with the acceptance of his promotion. Not a lot, but probably once a month for several days at a time and it's never much fun. And I've been on the other side too. I dated an airmen for almost 3 years and much of that relationship was apart. Though at that time he wasn't in Iraq or Korea (yet) he was in Wy and I was still in Ca. It's very difficult, but it can be done. I cannot imagine that with children though!
I wonder how my husband is going to deal with my schedule as a nurse (when the time comes). Right now I've been very fortunate only have to go to a few night clinicals a week, but at some point, I have no doubt that I'll be working nights and maybe even nocs. I really hope that I can work around that!
Hugs!!!
Perfectly stated!! And only a STRONG women can endure the stress that comes with being a firemans wife. You're doing a great job! Your hubby is a lucky man to have a great support system at home.
Well stated!! I'm proud of the revalation that you have discovered ~ Having your best friend unavailable can be difficult, however becoming independent can be very fulfilling as a woman AND it makes the time you share together OH so much better (IMO). Never doubt for one minute that your fireguy would much rather be with you, but alas he must fulfill the responsibilities of his career choice. Always remember that your family is here to support you and is very proud of you and your independence :-) XOXOXOX
I'm just impressed that you have 4 uninterrupted hours to clean house! No but really, it is something I often think about, especially now having the babies with me, and really no family around. I've been away from my family a while, so it wasn't a complete shock to my system (to be alone so much that is); but it certainly starts to wear, especially when they do those long OT stretches (which are pretty much our life at the moment thanks to senority:)
Hang in there, and you know I am (almost) always here!!
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